Friday, October 08, 2004
CAT
That's what they're going to call it, CAT (Center for Advanced Technology), the newly created department that will basically do my job plus... I finally got to read the current proposal & frankly, I wish they'd just sign on the dotted line & get it over with. Dragging this whole thing out is sooooooooooooooooooooo very painful. You can't even imagine. If I didn't have a personal interest in this whole thing, I'd have to agree that, on paper, at least, the whole thing really does sound like a good plan. But I do have a personal interest & so... I have a whole lot of reservations & many of them have to do with the service aspect of what's being proposed. They want faculty to give 2 days notice. Hah! Well, maybe they can make that happen. We'll see... I pride myself on being there on a moment's notice, to give the best service I can possibly provide. I also feel that the personal touch, that little bit of human interaction that means so very much to me, is what identifies me with my job & is going to be the hardest thing to leave behind. I'm guessing that my very LAST setup will be October 14th if everything goes according to their plans.
On the other hand, God's been very good to me & hasn't stripped me of my job all at once. I probably would not have handled that very well. I pray for the grace to accept the things I cannot change...courage to change the things I can & wisdom...to know the difference. Yes, its all of the above that I lack.
So...now what? Everytime that I've thought about quitting amongst the various changes in my department, I bargained with myself that I'd just hold out a little longer...through cancer; until Dot's retirement; waiting for the new Media coordinator, Michelle; after Michelle's resignation; & now all (or most) of the equipment is going away too. So, what am I to do next??? My soul is searching for an answer & maybe the answer is right in front of me, but I can tell you quite honestly, I just don't see a thing!
The days of Media are over for me...I can't deny it any longer. What I'm going to do with the rest of my life is totally in God's hands. I sure hope He has a giant megaphone so I can hear every word, and a BIG stick to shove me in the right direction. Am I supposed to hang around & see what happens next...OR do I pick up & move...? Go where...? Do what...?
I need another tissue...gotta go! Later...
On the other hand, God's been very good to me & hasn't stripped me of my job all at once. I probably would not have handled that very well. I pray for the grace to accept the things I cannot change...courage to change the things I can & wisdom...to know the difference. Yes, its all of the above that I lack.
So...now what? Everytime that I've thought about quitting amongst the various changes in my department, I bargained with myself that I'd just hold out a little longer...through cancer; until Dot's retirement; waiting for the new Media coordinator, Michelle; after Michelle's resignation; & now all (or most) of the equipment is going away too. So, what am I to do next??? My soul is searching for an answer & maybe the answer is right in front of me, but I can tell you quite honestly, I just don't see a thing!
The days of Media are over for me...I can't deny it any longer. What I'm going to do with the rest of my life is totally in God's hands. I sure hope He has a giant megaphone so I can hear every word, and a BIG stick to shove me in the right direction. Am I supposed to hang around & see what happens next...OR do I pick up & move...? Go where...? Do what...?
I need another tissue...gotta go! Later...
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